damia is 6!

being a mother of an eczema baby is hard u know..cuma i ni jenis yang tak mudah stress or tension..cuma i sedih bila eczema damia teruk!dah quite some times actually eczema dia tak naik teruk..tak naik teruk tapi naik sikit2 tu memang selalu ada..paling lama dia clean 100% pon 2minggu jer..pastu mesti ada sikit2..i tak tau kenapa..i dah jaga dia the very best i can, dah make sure dia tak panas,sentiasa bersih,rumah sentiasa bersih,make sure habuk takde,make sure dia selalu pakai pelembab..but still,tiba2 naik teruk..this time memang i tak tau why?

before ni kdg2 i rasa mungkin i tersalah makan because foods pon contribute to the flare up kan..i memang pantang makan sebab damia is exclusive breastfeed so i have to watch out what i ate..n disebabkan eczema dia, i tak makan seafoods,telur,kacang2,susu n apa2 yg buat gatal.walaupon i pernah termakan n tengok dia ok jer but still i hindarkan..takut jadi apa2..tp yg i perasan i pernah termakan kacang n eczema dia naik..kacang is yes..memang i perasan!tp yg lain so far tak nampak kesan pd damia..tp takpelah better i hindari kan..

this morning,i went to see dr.ranjit,the most well known skin specialist in subang..sebab eczema damia teruk since 2 days ago..and seperti doc sebelum ni,dia ponn ckp the same thing..i berikrar nak jaga damia baik2 n make sure eczema dia terkawal!

ini gmbr eczema dia naik teruk...sedih kan?bila naik eczema,gatal2..tu yg sedih!

kat muka,badan,tangan,kaki...



today damia genap 6 bulan n dah boleh start makan!tak sabar nak suap dia for the first time!mummy decided to make apple puree for damia tonight!

satu lagi cabaran bila damia dah start makan is to make sure that only quality food saja dia makan..as a mother, of course i taknak my daughter makan makanan tak berkhasiat,too much sugar,salt,etc...n satu lagi cabaran is to make sure org lain tak suap makanan sebarangan pada anak i..yelah,sometimes org main2 ngn dia,pastuu suap makanan kat dia...i risau kalau org suap sebarangan!lain org ni lain caranya..bagi dorg its ok untuk bb makan some foods yang utk sesetengh org lain, xboleh..as for me,jenis foods sgt pntg for my princess!

and next week damia start her first class!too late kan?i've been searching for her class before but last week baru jumpa n since this weekend we will go to penang(this is her 3rd time vacation to penang!),so her class will start next week..so excited untuk bawa damia ke kelas..i wonder how she will be when meeting n playing with friends yang same age dgn dia..before ni,main dgn org tua2 jer!

now damia dah nampak mcm nk duduk..but i am not sue duduk or merangkak..sbb dia angkat2 punggung senget2 mcm nk duduk..tp sometimes nmpk mcm nak merangkak..apa2 pon damia is a quick learner and i am very proud of her..

next 2 weeks damia genap 6 bulan...walaupun dia start meniarap semasa umur 3bulan lebih,tp smpi skang damia tak merangkak dan tak mengengsot..duduk dalam posisi nak merangkak tu adalah tapi dia tak merangkak,dia menggelungsur ke depan..klo duk dalam posisi mengengsot pulak, dia tak ke depan..dia gostan hehehe..meluncur ke depan tu selalu lah...tp now dia dah nak duduk!dah a few times dia duduk tp taklah duduk tegak,duduk senget2 tp dia penuh semangat berusaha!

next 2 weeks juga damia boleh start her first solid food!mummy decided nak bg puree apple dulu..pisang kandungan gula tinggi,avocado takut damia tak suka..rasanya the best is apple lah..mummy sangat excited nak suap damia makan for the first time!

bercakap pasal pemakanan bayi ni, kadang2 ada i tengok yg bagi baby makan since 1 month..omg!tapi nak buat macam mana..lain orang lain caranya..tapi naluri keibuan i ni kadang2 nak je ckp kesan perbuatan itu ke atas bayi..i kesian kat baby tu actually..my husband side pon sebenarnya train anak2 diorang makan since 2months old..sbb bg dorg bb nangis sbb lapar..umur 6 bulan dah siap makan nasi ok!my mom pon terkejut ms tengok dorg suap nasi impit n sate kat bb 6 bulan!tapi mungkin mereka tak terdedah dengan keburukan perbuatan tu..i pon tak nak lah cakap nanti dorg kata memandai2 pulak kan...

but as for me, dari baby ni lah kena jaga betul2...sebab tu sume akan effect them in future..as a working mother, i pon sebenarnya rasa banyak ketinggalan dalam tengok anak i..tapi i try my very best untuk spend quality time with her every night n during weekends!

sometimes i rasa nak quit job skang n do something yang i boleh spend the whole day with her..tyak payah nak fikir siapa nak jaga...honestly i dont trust anyone else except my mother to take care of her..sebab so far, cuma cara my mom jaga damia je sama mcm i jaga..i tak berani bagi orang lain jaga sebab i takut..masa tak boleh makan lagi,org dah suap makanan..or bila dah start makan,orang suap sebarang makanan kat dia..i sangat risau!!sbb i taknak dia makan bukan2..

lagipon sebab dia ada eczema, dari segi kebersihan pon i tak confident..ye lah,kalau hantar ke rumah orang, kita tak tahu tahap kebersihan orang macamn kan..takkan nak komplen suruh orang bersihkan rumah selalu kan..that is the reason why my mom jer yang i bagi jaga..tapi sampai bile?i pity my mom sebab terpaksa duduk dengan i,tinggal my father di kampung sbb my father taknak duduk kl lama2..nak jaga kucing n rumah katanya..walaupon my parents sanggup berkorban untuk cucu diorang tu,tapi as a daughter,i think i should sacrifice too..

yes they did request to bring damia to kuantan..but as a mother, sapa sanggup pisah ngan anak??i love her very much..datang keje pon ingat2 damia..ini kan nak pisah seminggu sekali je jumpe?NO NO NO!

so i sekarang tengah fikir the solution..whether i quit my job n do something else coz i tak boleh jadi surirumah sbb itu membosankan!so i have to think of something else to do to make sure that i can take care of damia and at the same time i can do something that i like!

ni gambar damia dari 4mos+ hingga now!

damia at 4month!

damia is now 4 months old...

damia was born on 31st december 2010 at 940pm...waaaa,mummy n daddy kahwin on 1st jan 2010 n damia kuar on the last day of the year!

so far dia dah boleh meniarap,membebel,main2..eczema dia pernah teruk hari tu ms umur 3 bulan..teruk sangat2 smpi the skin specialist pon pelik macam mana hydrocort tak beri kesan apa2 dah..maybe dah immune?so he gave vizomet..vizomet ni kuat n not that suitable for bb but since eczema dia terlalu teruk so kena sapu sikit untuk kurangkan jer then sapu hydrocort..kalau ikutkan hati, tak sampai hati nak sapu ubat pada damia tp sebab terlalu teruk smpi dia tak bole tido mlm sebab gatal,so i had to.

tp nasib baik sapu 2x then dah ok..sapu hydrocort 2 kali..terus bersih..then control guna moisturizer..i use ezzera at that time..

serik dah..jangan lah naik teruk mcmtu lagi ye sayang..

ni damia at 4mos...ms ni muka ada sikit sikit eczema..

touching..

yang, apa perasaan u masa tengok i bersalin aritu?

i takut giler!

hahaha..mesti u takut sbb nmpk sakit giler kan??

tak..i takut kalau i kehilangan u....

~touching~



i love u sayang!

being a mother

this is my first post sejak jadi ibu ni...ibu kepada damia nadyne hannah..

being a mother is challenging u know..i admit that the first month being a mother, i still dont have the motherly feeling..rasa mcm serba tak kena..rasa macam lepas ni dah terbatas nak buat apa2..dengan tak cukup tido, tido tak senyenyak dulu..

until masa damia kena ambil darah n menangis,ms tu made me feel sgt2 sedih n hampir menitik air mata then masa tu baru realize that i love her so much!!

but...damia ada atopic eczema..

will update soon!

fatty crab again

last sunday we went to fatty crab again..this time not their branch in mines but we went to their main restaurant at kelana jaya..and it did taste a bit different there..the gravy in KJ was better..and as usual i didnt really like crabs so i ate chicken wings,toasts with the gravy..and it did taste soooo good..

a day before that we went to steamboat buffet in sunway..and it was damn worth it!serious!quite a lot of things to eat..not only steamboat but they also have fried meehoon/rice,fried chicken,wantan,popiah,chicken rendang,aiskrim,abc,choc fountain and a lot more..wah,bole jadi promoter la pasni..

and we cooked too..on friday night...mulan made kerabu sotong yg menjadi kerabu ikan bilis sbb sotong mulan beli dah busuk gile mulan tak tau sotong busuk ke tak pdhal semerbak gile bau smpi rs nak muntah.huh.wan cooked meatball soup yang dialter di rumah mulan dgn menambah salary dan sebagainye yang ijumpai dlm peti mulan.n i cooked ikan sweet sour yang menjadi sgt sweet dan tak jadi.i am bad at cooking lauk pauk.haih.and it took 2 1/2 hours for us to cook ikan,gaul kerabu n alter soup.gile takde bakat surirumah yg berjaya.

pizza pun buat tau..ahaha..percaya ke?

my brother left for london..

yesterday was pretty sad..adik left for london..we sent him to klia..my family,auntylongs's family,n k eda's mother yg pegi..he is supposed to register on 19th but went there earlier with his fren who is goin to uk too but register earlier at different uni sbb dia takde geng.. ala,padahal nak jejalan dulu macam aku tatau.

ibu was sooo sadd...me too..but i was too ego to cry..as usual la..tp sebenarnye menitik jugak air mata tp aku kebil2 kan mata laju2-tips untuk airmata tak jatuh..we anta adik smpi tmpat masuk,then tgok je dr atas..i saw adik kesat his mata without looking back at us..maybe he was too sad..but control cos lelaki kan..tp lipas takut gile siap berlari skali ngn aku untuk selamatkan diri.podah cit.

raya ni tggal me,my big bro,sis in law and their son je..sdey tau!cume memula hepi tak perlu bg duit ry kat adik sbb dia takde tp tidak sebenarnye.dia dah pesan bank in semua duit belanja bulanan dia n duit raya yg aku bg dlm bank. adik,angah,kak eda,along my family..mak kak eda came too..
goodbye and take care!jgn lupe brg2 sy kirim.harus beli.

and this morning i received msg from him thru my frenster..the msg said..

'saye baru sampai london..best gak...agak sejuk...banayk barang2 cam menarik gak....hehehe....k ngah, kemsalam kat ibu ngan ayah ye....cakap kat dorang saye da sampai n ok je...peace!!!'

and also msg from him to my sis in law:

'hai kak eda...ni baru sampai kat london...stay kat rumah orang melayu jugak...okla....agak sejuk gak...sian ibu...tadi tak sempat nak toleh, takot takle control je..heheheh....kemsalam banyak2 kat ibu,ayah along n angah....next year adek bawk balik adiah banyak2 tuk korang k..heheheh....btw, ne ym adek...xxxx@yahoo.com.....nanti leh chatting2 lak'

i guess he is okay already..i hope he is okay..he rarely do sumting on his own..sgt jrg..normally my parents,me n along yg helped him settle everything.adik manja la katakan..even nak g uk ni pon,ibu yg kemas kan sume brg2..dia tak amik port pon..cume tgok n tunjuk2 dengan gagahnye.i hope he'll learn to do everything on his own..good for him la kan.

ps:there's one sentence yg made me excitedddd sgt..'next year adek bwk balik adiah banyak2 tuk korang k'..yess!dah pesan dia soh g warehse kat scotland yg teramat femes tu..nak hadiah best2..kira wedding gift la-sambil gedik2.walaupon tak tau bile akan menikah.